ACTs of Kindness

Since we lost Ace last year, and even more since we lost Daddy, I have grown increasingly worried that something is wrong with me. I've always been forgetful and I have ADD but this is far and away beyond the bounds of what is normal for me. If I don't write something down it's immediately forgotten. I repeat statements and ask the same questions over and over again. I can't respond appropriately & in a timely manner sometimes to even simple things, like someone telling me to... "Have a nice day." I've had to quit school with 3 semesters left because it takes all I have to get through the day at work, and by the time I get home my brain is completely overloaded and can't process not one more thing. I'm completely worn out at the end of the day, as if I've worked out for hours and hours on end and yet I can't sleep at night. It turns out that there isn't anything actually wrong with me; the trauma of two sudden losses in the last year have affected my brain. I just hope it doesn't actually last a few years as the article states, and that it doesn't get much worse. "Memory loss, confusion, an inability to concentrate or focus these things are all normal inside grief... For a lot of people, it’s a few years before their entire cognitive capacity comes back to any recognizable form... The thing to remember is that physiologically, your body has experienced trauma... Your mind is working so hard, there’s very little brain power left over to track more than a paragraph in a book, or remember that your car keys go on the hook, not in the freezer."