The Polka Dot Pumpkin

This Saturday is my last day. :( I had a great year with a lot of up's AND down's. But through it all, I have met each and every one of you. I won't forget the laughs and the cries I've shared with some of you. Thanks for allowing me to share that with you for a year now. :) It's not too late to come and snatch up a REALLY good deal. Get some clothes for next year!!!

I wrote what I did the other day, not as a cry out for help. And I am NOT on the verge of a nervous breakdown or on the fringe of going crazy. I am HAPPY with my decision to close the shop. I just wanted to finally be truthful about why I am closing. I would love to stay home with my kids and be a home maker, but I can not afford to do that at this time. But GOD will NOT glorify me or my decision if I am not honest about it. :) So, I am fine. I do appreciate the prayers recei...ved, but if you would pray that GOD will open another door for me when I close this one for the last time, then THAT'S the prayer that I need. Thanks. I was also not trying to blame any one or any thing for the failure of the shop. It is just tough times for everyone EVERYWHERE. But I do thank everyone for the good year that I did have. :) I am happy and relieved for a change. See more

Thanks to everyone for their words of encouragement. I do KNOW that GOD is an awesome GOD. He is in control. I just have to SHUT UP and listen to him and let HIM do his work!!!

I have a pit in my stomach and my make up is streaming down my face from all the crying I have been doing this morning. I thought I was through with the tears. I really opened up to all of you this morning and not sure of the feedback. I know there will be some of you that are mad about your money. I hate that I had to dip into your portion of it to pay my bills here at the shop. I have not even been able to buy groceries for my family in a few months. But God has not let us go hungry yet and He won't! :)

Okay, I was hoping it would not come to this. The reason I am selling the shop is business is SLOW. I sit here some days with no one coming in AT ALL!!! I am spending more on my darn electricity to keep this place open and for what? NOTHING. I have people come in and say I can't believe you're closing OR I hate that you are closing. Where am I going to go now? WELL, where have they been on the days when I have been struggling???? I don't even know at this point if I can pay ...some of my consignors because I have had to spend what ever money I DO have to just stay open and pay my utilities. I have two house payments and MOUNDS of doctors bills piling up from where I was in the hospital because of the stress from worrying about whether or not I made enough money to stay open. I am probably going to have to file bankruptcy on the shop. I will pay you the consignors when I can. I have a list of what I owe everyone. And I will pay you what I owe you, I don't know when or EVEN HOW, but if you can be patient with me, I promise I WILL pay you what I owe you OR DIE TRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sorry that it has come to this, I have REALLY tried my best and I can say my BEST. I asked myself what I could have done differently!! AND the answer is nothing. I can't make someone come in and buy from me. I have often reached out and asked for your suggestions to make it a nice place to shop. BUT I can have it decorated with all the finer things and cute as a button, but if no body comes in and shops, then it's for nothing. I am opening up my most private thoughts with you. I have been depressed and even suicidal at one point. A BUSINESS SHOULD NEVER, EVER get you to a point where you are feeling that way. So that's when I decided enough is enough! THAT'S why I am selling the shop. I am tired of lying to everyone. I was ashamed to admit I was a failure. BUT I AM NOT A FAILURE ~ THE BUSINESS IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am a STRONG woman and I will get through this with GOD's help. See more